Ever since my unfortunate experience with the Russian cyber-guys who almost-hacked my website (They did not but they did enough nonsense to get the Google warning label activated which was almost as bad. Getting that scarlet letter removed was the bulk of the challenge), I have felt a smidge neglected. Not lonely so much as, well, not so popular. (My definition of being popular or not hovers around the 300 visitors/day mark). Off the Grid Homes has not had 300 visitors a day in over a month!
I am pretty mature. Sane, I think. I have perspective. Mentally healthy, kinda, ya know? I am not even as insecure as I once was. But, well, let’s face it – numbers don’t lie. And my numbers were bad. And I expected better. Clearly I was out of the ‘popular’ neighbourhood and into the ‘shunned’ area of town. Wrong side of the tracks. It hurt.
But surprise! the day before – 290.
Yesterday was 390!!
Now how is that possible?
What happens that makes 100 more people visit the site? I wrote about our W’fer…….wazzat it? Did a bunch o’ w’fers look up ‘w’fer’ on Google and all of a sudden I am on the map? How does this sort of thing happen? Is this how a message ‘goes viral’? (Does 100 more readers a viral message make?)
All of a sudden there is a ‘blip’ on the search engine and you are Warhol-famous for fifteen minutes? “Hey, Groucho! What’s the secret word?” (Groucho Marx had a quiz show on TV in the late 50’s. Part of the quiz show format was a ‘secret word’. If a contestant said the secret word in any part of their participation, they won something. The secret word was a big quiz-show deal until the $64,000 Question. But, I digress).
Anyway my point is this: social media (of which I am a micro-part) is a crapshoot. Some things click’. Most things do not. And ‘clicking’ is a big deal in this brave new world. People become famous for being on a viral wave of some kind. I guess Paris Hilton was built on such a foundation, now that I think about it.
But no sane person wants that. I don’t. I don’t think I can take the lows. The ‘highs’ would be nice but the ‘lows’? Not so much.
However, I would like to communicate what I am going through – chronicle my devolving consciousness, as it were. I’d like to record what a guy who is over-the-hill and off-the-grid, off-the-wall and probably under-surveillance is going through and observing. You know, while the synapses are still signing and not napping?
It is not about profundity so much as sharing perspective to see if it resonates with anyone. To see if anyone else feels what I feel. In other words: the feedback is important and only about 1% of readers ‘feed back’. Therefore, to get ten comments I need 1000 readers. It’s all in the numbers.
OK, I am still a bit insecure, I guess, but, hell, I am male. I have an ego. Egos are fragile things. Old male egos are tortured souls. We need support, ya know?
What caught your eye (I am talkin’ to the mysterious 100 now…)? The word: Japanese? Sake? Was it the picture of a fish farm pen?
What is it with you people!?